Cedric's

where

2011-04-07T03:05:00.003+08:00

I just wanted to see the prettiest smile I've ever saw, again.

17 Already.

2010-08-31T02:26:00.002+08:00

First cake dedicated to me that has my name Cedric! Thanks Yao Cheng!

Thanks Nigel for this cake! lol, although it was just a intended hang out and you bought this! overkill! lol. thanks a bunch man.

Home's Celebration!

Thanks Hean&Boon for that cup! lol I'm going to use it, hope won't tio any damage! and zy for that solar power thing! Heard Sean's giving something too. (Sean, I never read books)

Hardly any shots of us maggggggotssss now lol, Who needs them anyway. We won't turn to just memories!

Chalet Memory Fragments

2010-08-31T02:07:00.001+08:00

Found this pic, my mistake of forgetting my coffee in the freezer. lol. The chalet not bad. haha. Why is Brendon so imba at cheat!

Taken in the early morning. fail location, can't see much sunrise.

BBQ! Stingray not bad, although dry only. lol, not bad ba. I can't remember much now, lols. The games played dam fun!

Quote

2010-08-13T01:18:00.002+08:00

(1:09 AM) Freemer://:
girls will remember guys that make her laugh , guys will remember girls that make him cry, but girls will stay with the guys that makes her cry and guys will stay with girls that makes him laugh

(1:12 AM) Cedric yw:
*omfg so cool
*and extremely plausibly true

lol, hmm. another phrase to think about. It feels so relating to realism.

Chain Messages

2010-08-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

Avoid swimming and ponds, water ghost. Do not turn ur head when someone calls u. Do not pick up things from the road incl money. Mind ur words. Do not play musical instruments after 6.30pm. Do not play music on loudspeaker. Do not sing traditional chinese songs on a junction. If u do not send this to 9 pple, there will be someone sitting on ur toilet bowl while u shower, there will be someone in the mirror. U will see someone waving to u at ur door. There will be someone watching tv beside u. There will be an illusion of how u die playing non stop. Up to u to believe or not, I'm afraid so I broadcast
Ps: do not sent back 2 the same person n im sry 4 sending it 2 u.

鬼节的禁忌：看见地上的东西不能拾；听见后头有人叫你的名字时，不能回头看；不能在十字路口唱古代歌曲；超过傍晚六点后不能玩任何乐器；说话时要注意，不要靠近水沟和游泳（水鬼拉你当替死鬼）；把这信息传给9个人或以上，让他们知道这些禁忌，以免受到伤害！如果不发或删除，你冲凉时会有“人”坐在马桶上，照镜子时会有“人”在你后面，在看电视时会有“人”陪你，眼前会一直浮现你死后的样子和在你家门口会有“人”跟你招手等等遭遇。信不信由你！我也是被逼的！[因为瓦买敢…]不准回发！

Wah, festive seasons uh. So much greetings sent around. zzzzz

Gamemaker's Over. Birthdays Celebrations!

2010-08-04T14:21:00.007+08:00

No more gamemaker. finally!

Happy Birthday to Zhi Ling,

Great steamboat! paiseh I was late. So overdrove from the stay-overs at my house.

Happy Birthday to Nigel,

First of all, omg you met her and that's all. walao!! but very nice dinner. haha, good times never change. dam that nub never make it.

Also, Glad that my dad recovered. edit: and I myself recovered too! My sickness was nothing compared to.

dpa attempt, again..

2010-07-12T16:34:00.005+08:00

Dear Student

A student repeating the GCE 'O' Levels is not allowed to apply through DPA or JPSAE.

Thank you for your interest in our Polytechnic.

Regards,
Admissions Office

-NYP Reply.

Hi,

Are you a Singaporean or Singapore PR?

Singapore Citizen and Permanent Resident private candidates who have registered to sit for the GCE O-Level examinations this year will be able to take part in the DPA admission exercise.

Regards

Sharon Yeo

-@polytechnic.edu.sg Reply

I gave up DPA since year start due to NYP's reply! Yesterday I thought of DPA and I just applied nevertheless, conveniently emailed them. Tomorrow's the DPA application deadline fortunately! Also receiving the reply that I am allowed to apply.
Their replies are so contradicting, perhaps private o level means not repeating but home-schooling? weirdd. lucky I've applied at the last second though.

Ym Left ITE.

2010-07-07T23:44:00.030+08:00

First Post and latest post, alpha and omega. kk I'm demented. lol.
From Monday till now I feel I'm in a self-delusion to bypass everything with a smile. Well, all this happens like a cycle. Enjoy and work hard in your nafa! (:

Since Monday, I felt dreadful knowing of your imminent departure.

I've missed you so terribly.. and sorry to cause your tears too. Treat it like graduation alright?

You're my closest female friend that I've ever had in my life. You've shown me how awesome friendship could be despite different gender, I used to be unapproachable between girls when I just broke out of my unsociable shell, but after being able too, it was such a big step for me. To have such an awesome, nice,pervert XD,cool and more importantly, someone who is so easy to relate to me. . You've one of the biggest influence on my life. Sure now the school for me is much more mundane and morphing into a monotonous cycle like usual. But we could still meet up and hang out! Although ,we meet each other much much lesser... sigh, all this are just cycle of life anyway. I might pass O level and leave soon too, we treat it as early graduation ba. The post getting too long, and hard to hide the ~~secret message~~ le,heehee long and hard,

You're really awesome, and I miss you so terribly. (Real -->) (:

LOL

Okay Signing Off. omfg the time..

Xealth Intro Screen.

2010-07-01T06:54:00.006+08:00

It's 6.54AM ALREADY ): damn it. photoshop crashed on me and I'd lost 4 hours of work halfway. I've manage to recuperate and complete my work in the end. Beta release of my intro screen! ;

gamemaker, hectic.

2010-06-26T02:31:00.004+08:00

My scripts all stopped working at once. OMG, someone help me );
someone who can help me, please? ):

I've fixed all the errors. :D like finally..

,I've had the ambition to make my first game spectacular, despite the probability of teachers not appreciating them, or my friends saying it's harmful to go too far. Since secondary 3 I've decided to get myself into this line and failing the O levels was a cut-off for me. Now that I've a chance to prove myself, I'll at least try for the best at the very beginning, to see the feedback. I'm sure not all the work would be under-appreciated and this I'll probably put into my portfolio too. Making my track to poly via o's more viable. Despite game maker might be a bullshit software, it still had quite a potential. I do not want to let go, again. So guys, there's a reason why I made it so different and difficult for myself. I'm not going to let it be easy just because of "improvement mark" that will help my GPA, I'm sure having a hell of a start will be great too. And we're moving into flash soon, why not make the best use of this gmk first.

To the game-artist: lol, I feel bad making you make so many strips of sprites. There's a lot you have to do. Thanks a lot for understanding and being so kind to do it XD. Because being my partner naturally comes with more work. LOL!
And your sprites look really great, have more confidence in them! haha (:

Currently, still going head over heals with integrating the sprites animation . lols

SC Camp.

2010-06-25T16:57:00.009+08:00

Edit, some camp pics:

I'm back from camp! A lot things had happened. some good and bad. lately, a lot things had changed me. I've met with some stuff/obstacles, not all are related to camp/meant to be there. Anyway mostly was for the best! oh and dedicated to Howard, sorry about that time. I was stressing about project. haha, getting back from camp and dive right into project do sucks. But anyway part of the camp really changed me in person. lol. perhaps the humdinger clique receive a wrong impression that time in msn, haha sorry'yall.
anyways, glad to regained a friendship that was lost. haha (: things have changed for me to understand a lot of stuff especially things that I went through blindly. what I felt now was,
I stopped regretting that much about coming to ITE, you guys (humdingers) and other factors I encountered, change me a lot in person. I've been a changing person since sec 3 and many of the time I was greatly flawed. I believe if I were in poly I would've been a different person but I wouldn't have change to a better one. As I really felt greatly enchanted for only the better with you guys I met. gonna work hard with my O-levle retake and get to poly. Sure gonna miss you guys then. still long though :D . Too bad Yasmin's leaving that early. oh I'm waiting for your sprites! haha. lol for the project I've completed whole character scripts (: haha.

RealLife Wall> Facebook Wall!

2010-06-17T15:14:00.007+08:00

My real life wall > Facebook Wall

Now anyone who've visited my room can sign out on my wall ! using invisible ink of course. they'll become visible with special lights. Can't be shown clearly with camera though. Have to see it with your own eyes.

This few days, watched shrek 3 with humdingers clique (: awesome ,too bad I didn't watch the preludes. Still remembers Alfred's epic & loud comment: Malay! when the cartoon character is lepaking and playing guitar. LOL. Enjoyed all your company! (: Do GameMaker? Ya right..!

My own project is still dragging on, didn't start yet. ): I'll start after posting this (using random sprites of course!) Still waiting for the artist. haha, never mind you got sick excuse. Actually, our whole project team has fallen sick. ):

Watched Karate Kid with Hean,Janice and Dulcie! lol , this movie is like just another replica of the many fighting movie out there. Not gonna say why, to prevent spoilers. Glad Dulcie found her wallet after leaving it behind. Most enjoyable part of movies, the toilet break after! Thanks for calling me out anyway, haha. (:

I'm still sick currently, my nose passage (w/e that's called) is clogged. ): feel like crap.

Maggot clique! stop kp-ing each other leh. we've been past that right? hang out soon!!

Online Portfolio's up!

2010-06-06T15:32:00.003+08:00

I made an online portfolio, :D .

http://cedricreation.carbonmade.com/

still going to add games projects when they're done though. Hope this can grant me dae. But first where can I find history tutors, lol. I need someone to guide my pure history.

The imminent farewells, Yasmin and Taqim. I'm going to miss you guys(Emphasis on the GUYS, ALL GUYS MA!) , great that you're going a better place than this anyway. ):
Good luck on your future studies, and life! lol.

Illustrator's Hell.

2010-05-30T20:53:00.005+08:00

lol.

whole prolonged weekend I'm doing the illustrator. ): omg I abhor it so much!
I still got a whole city to paint for my assignment and resume for lifeskills. sigh, so fucking sian. Thinking back, what people said even at 12 was right "Lyfe Sux" .

Start of first major project.

2010-05-20T21:38:00.005+08:00

Brandon's expression's priceless! LOL.

Projects all start le. heehee, lucky to have Yasmin as the artist. I reckon the work-done will be awesome! hah. Sigh, you'll leave soon and I need change partner. developer without designer. lol. Going to have loads of new activities caused of SC soon, going other ITEs. Got a sheer chance?..

Soon, going to be busy all the time .. :<

-will we ever meet again?

Lame Horror Story.

2010-05-15T22:21:00.006+08:00

Creepy Lame Story.

We went to geylang to have dinner, we 4 people order from the after that Malay store and split the total cost. Jasky and Brandon ate something else. We then continued on, walking around. I talked to my Brandon about ghost ,he claims he had never seen one and he's desperate to see one. I prompted if he tried the bloody mary thing, he say that he tried though. We then sat around this merry-go-round-horses at the top floor of a shopping center. I then saw there's a very small piece of round mirror (about 6cm diameter) on the horses. As we're waiting for Zelene's haircut to be done, I suggested Brandon to do the "ritual" of calling out bloody mary through that small mirror. He got off that creepy horse that look like it's going to bite someone as it's showing it's teeth aggressively.He stared into the mirror, I didn't took my sights off either. Calling HER name three times, we smiled to the lameness as the suspense fade.
I then sat down, checked on my phone. There's a miss call from Zelene , as I was gone previously. She called at 7.37 PM, I pressed [Back] and it went back to the calculator tools which I used previously to calculate the cost each person has to pay for the meal. Which was 29.5 / 4 = 7.375.

I casually told my parents about it, figuring my mom might have bought despite how I obtain that number. I checked Singapore Pools. It didn't appear recently, but-

7375 appeared in the following draws:
•	First prize on 30 Aug 00, Wednesday
•	Third prize on 31 Jul 99, Saturday
•	Starter prize on 06 Dec 09, Sunday
•	Starter prize on 27 May 07, Sunday
•	Starter prize on 27 Aug 94, Saturday
•	Starter prize on 12 Nov 88, Saturday
•	Consolation prize on 12 Sep 99, Sunday
•	Consolation prize on 18 Jan 87, Sunday

Total number of appearances: 8

This number appeared as first prize during my 7th Birthday.

Okay, enough overreaction.

IGN List.

2010-05-15T01:44:00.004+08:00

Atlantica IGNs & Clan List. (Link)

BlackShot IGNs & Clan List. (Link)

Two Word Story.

2010-05-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

Alf,Yas and Zel entered my com with tv originally to catch up with work they missed. This was produced instead.

Play 2 word story, each person type 2 words.
(don't type again until after everyone had
their turn.)

Ced Alf YAS THEN ZEL. OKAY
(will be blogged =) )

One day, Alfred went to school. He saw a beautiful flower and he leaned forward to the cubical in the girl's toilet. He awfully went to take a piece of tissue stuck in between a girl's fringe and pasted one on the tip of his dick head. He then tried to peel it off from his gigantic ballsack with a large acne on metallic pliers with extraordinary powers that could blow the minds of prostitudes and creepy bangalas. So, he continued to do nothing but masturbates himself to the image of a freaky mutated godzilla with three humonguous looking tits. Alfred started to swing his very powerful 4 feet long' penis, then Zelene just stared with no interest at other boys and quickly grobed their disgusting looking bitch faces with strangely 4 pairs of bright sharpened nipples. She then swing hardly into the butthole of random passerbys and back to the hole of Alfred's eye socket. Yasmin turned and jumped into holy water to prey for some unholy virgins which Alfred never wanted to violate. With an almighty pinky, he tossed some of the used unholy virgins at Cedric's expense, which lead to him being unfavoured. Hence, he left to suck Chupa Chups. Howard came, and staggered with no mercy for Alfred. Zelene then reached out for Chupa Chups' friend, whose named Cedric Bieber Karl Kunikunichingz. He then quickly masturbated to ejaculate blood with millions of potential children and they swam fast to save the king with no visible ballszzzzzzsxzzszxzzxzsszxz.

The End.

Farc

2010-05-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

FARC, FARC FARC wow, the history channel been saying that all the way just now. the FARC soldiers , lol. Best name for a military group. The history channel speaker must be feeling impervious to be able to say that a dozen times.

End Em.

2010-05-09T18:33:00.005+08:00

Time to end off the emotional feel. I'm gonna try harder.
I just called my mom and said "mu ching zie kuai le, ai ni(softly)." I know my mom's hearing is sensitive as hell so she probably heard it. lol. going to my uncle house to celebrate mother day in a while. :D
I love you all, J.H.A.Z.Y. (humdingers)
and also Z.S.H.D.J.N.(maggots(LOL))
for every influence in my life you guys made. :D

lack.

2010-05-09T15:59:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't had went through my life, with such a lackadaisical attitude.
"
(4:16 PM) Cedric yw:
*i guess im in the stage of, "What HAVE I BEEN DOING TO MY LIFE."
"

family.

2010-05-09T15:34:00.002+08:00

Father
And
Mother,
I
Love
You.

I've always liked this phrase.

one day bro

2010-05-09T15:08:00.003+08:00

Perhaps one day, when we're both more matured and older,especially me. We'll talk, my second brother.
update: I've tried, oh well. It's all my fault alright, for that mistake-post long ago. I can't take this anymore.

reduced 7things.

2010-05-08T22:14:00.012+08:00

today I found that some of my old friends changed so much.why the attitude and overreaction.
I used to be carefree together with you guys, including the absentees too.......
home's always cold and isolating till my parents get back, only late at night.
still,there's imminent quarrels outside my room......
an array of my friends around me are getting hurt greatly.
yet, I can't do much to help them.....
recently, some replies to my messages.
is either negativity or nothing....
my ambitions and dreams' still far.
I might never archive them...
all I hope is, for what I have left.
won't reduce furthermore..
You're all treasures I've found.
Absolute Preciousness.

ZOMG.

2010-05-02T12:52:00.004+08:00

Saw this on the internet. look far.

Shoutout -Zel!

2010-05-02T04:04:00.003+08:00

( Humdingers )

A shout-out for Zelene post. Cause it's awesome!

I'm still awaiting, when will we have our picnic! c'mon humdingers! :D

Webcam Whores.

2010-04-30T00:13:00.007+08:00

This one Yasmin look so adorable! lol.

woots, so many people! mass-whoring ftw, lol.

I love myself so much. lols

Webcam-whoring! Humdingers.
Lols, the more unglam pics aren't here. I'm not so evil to post around! :D

~

Loves Much! :D <-- *tilt head

Back from absence.

2010-04-29T23:37:00.007+08:00

Back to school! And I'm greeted with an ongoing project that gave me 2 hour before it's due. The usual!

lol,work until like that and get 0 marks. Teachers toying with us lor. =/

Finally back with you guys! My system like clearing up le, not all choked up with mucus no more(ewww,I know).

Guess what, after joining GAME DESIGN AND DEVELOPMENT for so long, they made their first game!- WHEN I'M ABSENT! omg, sadd. Though someone said to teach me personally :D

Oovoo

2010-04-19T23:27:00.003+08:00

Lols, OOVOO. Much more interesting images are at FaceBook. Check it out,or not. hahas. Howard was so high, unexpectedly even more than Alfie. Amazing.

Revival.

2010-04-17T01:53:00.005+08:00

Revival.
It's really hard to start off after not posting for so long, guess this would be it. ITE's great, very enjoyable. In fact, 2 guy, Howard and Alfred. Their birthday are going to get very exciting. Even more, having their birthdays fall on the same day. Everyone rmb, this critical date -6 September.

Great class , group grew to 1/2 the class le. Despite some people zhao our hang out, they're settling in though. Applying SC soon, hope I get in.

Thanks Yasmin for telling me how make the scripting for this music player lol, programming and art all own sia. Top student liao.

P.S , It's Yao Wei / Cedric /Alternatives? no.

Josh's Birthday. Awesome dinner!

2010-04-13T23:50:00.005+08:00

Happy Josh's Birthday. lol awesome clique.

Previously-

I noticed this in my phone, awesome days. hahas.

2009

2009-12-29T22:09:00.003+08:00

2009's over soon. Not really fast in terms of how tormenting it was.

Social Politics.

2009-12-05T14:55:00.002+08:00

Friends/Social Politics. What makes life much harder.

Magic Trick,Right..

2009-12-03T22:45:00.001+08:00

saw this in my community' event. same guy from the prom event. hahas

p.s the i found out it's actually a table made of light material and the thick cloth have a curved handle inside to lift the table. lols.

Class BBQ

2009-12-02T18:32:00.005+08:00

class bbq was nice! hahas.
lols so much left overs. though we have Ernest to cure half the problem.
L4d 2 kicks ass. hahas, especially the deteriorating highway map

AES Prom.

2009-11-24T23:45:00.009+08:00

Kana sabo-ed by Sean!! lols.

- friends =) . btw, grats to Darren on his accomplishment!

prom was cool and sweet! hahas, dj rocked. the music was awesome.

Hang out more!

2009-11-19T20:23:00.008+08:00

so quiet nowadays. boring. not till hanged out with sean' clique.

all about you

2009-11-14T21:12:00.005+08:00

It's all about you.

Admission Excercises.

2009-11-12T00:58:00.003+08:00

Found out I could use Special Direct Admissions Exercise (SDAE) or Direct Admissions Exercise (DAE) if I failed my Direct Polytechnic Admission (DPA) criteria. Lols, I suck at studying to use normal jae admission. Alternate routes !

O Level.

2009-11-12T00:48:00.001+08:00

O lewel ower! fweeedom.

flash

2009-10-25T12:31:00.002+08:00

Flash Mob at Raffles Place. woah.

Godly Results.

2009-09-15T22:48:00.004+08:00

EL-49.09%
EM-49%
Phy-49%
My results are coincidentally amazing. sad.

Overclocked.

2009-09-01T19:29:00.007+08:00

Hey yo, back! monday after school "went to eat with boon sheng" then go Sean house. hahas played some games as usual then swim! wooah! swim damn long, haha bboy,dance and games lol, then had kfc. and dispersed!

Night Life-At night went out with mal-they all, supposed to study bit, end up- cycles of dota & smoke (I watched) thrice then cab home. Hahas, mal & matt strategy, ask the uncle how much to reach all the destination then say they only have 10 bucks, the forth taxi accepted . hahas, saved like 5+ dollars. zai.

Day light, went to meet hean,munyee,evelyn & ryan. went to bugis-iluma coz the theatre there, had to burn 2 hours off so they did alot silly stuff! lols, hean invite some girl we don't know, then we help they 2 ice-break! watched up in 3d.the movie quite nice, watch final destination 4 soon! then went for dinner at mos burger and end.

-misses you missing me.

Busy & Excite.

2009-08-22T23:34:00.007+08:00

hellos.zz, so tired! hahas, went to sch, dnt, then chiong home change and went out.with -nigel,zy,sean,jk,darren watch gi joe, haha what nanomites ,loll so boring and predictable story. then like usual, this clique dispersed. went to eat with jk,sean,darren. at botak jones.
went home and had a 5 hours long 1on1 tuition! argh so tiring. went throught the hardest e-maths paper. haha the tutor had dinner with my family. studied so much today, yays. then day ended rendering me tired as hell =(.
hmm,every Chinese 7th month I hear loads of marble dropping sounds on my ceiling, would it ever stop? Noisy to the max!
Stayed awake just to see your responses which i might not get.

2009-08-19T18:08:00.003+08:00

sad mt result d7. not gonna retake though.

DPA Acceptance.

2009-08-18T21:15:00.009+08:00

Yeas! dpa accepted. hahas ,I need to pass my english&maths& 2 subs and get 26 points for 5 subs.

-with hopes.

No memories.

2009-08-13T19:15:00.010+08:00

dpa and mt results coming next week! scary. studied and studied, till I have no memories to key down. =/

-Pay no mind to what they say, it doesn't matter anyway.

Ice age3,hair,birthday party!

2009-08-02T16:37:00.009+08:00

woke up at like 4. tirrred, but had an awesome day. (considering my day ended at like 12 yesterday)
happy Bday Janice and Nigel!

Nigel clique' hangout- hah watched Ice Age 3. quite nice I suppose. josh,nigel,hean,me,darren,zy and sean was in. then had bowling. hean step power!!! lol I only do well if I imagined I was in my cca. boring serious phase. haha . and hean beaten josh. btw my contact ran again! i think perhaps i was suppose to change. and I haven't seen it yet!

Then went to cut hair with Boon Sheng and Hean. lol Hean could have requested something more style. but something about him makes every hair dresser cut that shape? hahas. then Boon got some hard core dragon ball style. It was god like except the side i suppose. then headed for Janice' house.

Janice' party- very memorable. lepak ,alcohol and stuff. cup money and bought a mikey mouse toy. lols, only Hean knows what to buy for Janice!hmm stout for an alcohol doesn't taste bad, compare to the taste of hell from beer and wine. then cut the cake. or more like smearin the cake at each other. lols. lepak till like 11.45 and end. Oh, and some said hell gate opened, apparently not. random ppl said it was at tampines or bugis. hahas

-Don't Judge, Don't Compare.

Just Dance-

DPA Interviews.

2009-07-30T22:58:00.005+08:00

Hellos.I'm getting so exhausted. Finished 2 dpa interview, hope there's a third one. Anyway about the interview, I had to go there, have a 45 min math+lameness test. then 3 hour wait time and finally for a proper interview.It should be highly probable that I get in my first choice, yays.

One step at a time-

Weddings.

2009-07-19T22:10:00.012+08:00

hellos,

Hah, KorKor upload le. my cuzzzz. pri 5 got stead le!

Souvenir- Key to your love' heart.

shots from my cousin' wedding.

There she goes-

There are.

2009-07-16T18:16:00.004+08:00

Just found out there's silent readers here, thought no one comes!

-Tag

Darren's Party!

2009-07-11T23:55:00.010+08:00

Back from Darren's birthday party, it was AWSUM!! hahas
lols. wake up at 2.30 pm. hah , got ready then call cab. Darren' house like at dungeon! lol when we say he's rich he says he is normal. I dun own 2 car,2 maid,3story building and a large balcony perimiter. Anyway played 1 round mah jong,halo3,some movie game thing from xbox360 . Ur suppose to do silly actions for the camera and they make a movie ,dam funny.Oh ya and karaoke hahas dam funny,played music on our phone to the mic,chang hee got the because im stupid song then i got the eng ver. sang random and stuff.drank hong teck' vodka! hahas.

Anyway almost every guys was thrown in the pool. This godlike party had Felix' and Roy' HPs as a tribute.sad. Felix' was working at first, then the screen went off and the back light went on,then went flashing and died after all this process of deterioration.Think they trying to revive em now. Still, it was fun. hahas everyone being thrown in.haha ,then we just play around in the pool. lols ,end.

movielepak.

2009-06-12T23:35:00.030+08:00

Hello! hahas, back from the movie and lepak.
ate some beef rice thing which hong teck was so thrilled about hahas. cam whored abit haha. today was fun. hahas someone fell for Hannah Montana in the movie.
Went Hong Teck house haha, piano, com and tv. hahas made his com dam ownage and free of virus. cool to meet u hahas. my phone suddenly cant use, my dad nvr pay phone bill! then after a while suddenly can le. haha lucky.
haha sry mal nvr go out tonight, next time bah. u guys dam eh gan haha night life. too lei le. tmr got tuition at 9.30am. then planned to see/play soccer.

p.s I like to phrase while blogging! hahas, don't be lazy!

cam whore de, Roy' spec, Hong Teck' house-

Blue-

All Lost.

2009-06-09T22:59:00.012+08:00

today, I dropped my phone and busted my 16gb memory stick. (yes IPhone originals ' fanatics, rejoice over how the 800 bucks u paid more than me "paid off") I then found out I lost my retainers ,it's something stupid that is suppose to not let my teeth go back to the position before the operation which also makes me mispronounce everything =/ . hopefully I'll find it somewhere or i lost 400 dollars.I then accidentally got splashed by tap water and had leg cramps.
In 1 day I lost $650.

haha , though I'm gonna try to be optimistic , gonna buy back the retainer thing and never bring it to sch again. I just found out that i prefer my older phone. It's so much smaller and lighter. And serves the purpose of msging and playing songs.
Today start off great =), then lessons and followed by some mishaps. after that alot ppl came my house haha- roy,nicholas, boon sheng, ellis, eugene. played bbal,tenis. I was so tired ,hahas. Slept very little yesterday.

Koizora,"classes".

2009-06-08T15:54:00.012+08:00

Hellos,

watched koizora again! haha , saddening story.
hmm ,sch was boring, mr ong kp me haha anyway the lesson i learned nth at all. Why are we recapping probability?-.- . Lol call me move infront then so hard msg haha. what "he chose regina over ziying" lolls , the other chair was uncomfortable right!
Anyways we all faked mr ong got hist then we dispersed. I,matt and nabil went dnt. my circuit finish le! A1! haha the teacher there help me do while I msg lolol. msged hean' wrong number to meet up then matt zhao le. later then found out it was wrong..

I'm
Terrified to remember; forbidden to forget.
-Malcolm' dm

Still Alive-

Pain.

2009-06-05T22:28:00.017+08:00

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Life' Axis.

Because I'm Stupid -

Do you know what it feels like -

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?

Pain

I have never once thought that one could experience so much pain. I wanted you because not only did you attract me, you attracted others, too. When you were still here for me, I ordered you around, making you do things I wanted you to do. But you never gave up on me. You made it a point to see a smile on me. You didn't mind sacrificing things for me. I did not cherish you. And now that you are gone, I miss you so badly, it hurts.

Love, encased within is the feeling of pain after it's gone.

Within the depth of my heart, the relationship we had is long gone and over. But again, because I was so self-centered, I held on to you, I made it seem like you too held on to me. I held onto you brutally and unkindly. Using psychology and fear, I was hurting you not only emotionally, I believe you felt so much pain, it became physical. I knew it was wrong. But I carried on, lying and pretending, just to save my pride. To spare me from the embarrassment. I told myself that if I was happy, you would be, too. I kept telling myself, that was what you wanted for yourself, too.

" - & -- " There was never a - without a -- , nor a -- without a - . We were inseparable. Just to keep up our 'relationship' going, I hurt you. But you kept quiet, was it worth it?

Now that you left me, I begin to see things differently. I owe you an apology. Really, I am sorry.

Every girl, without doubt, enjoys being treated like a princess. They tend to fall for those alpha-males in general. Attractive girls such as yourself are targets for alpha-males. They have player traits like ordering a girl around and even flirting with other girls. They do it to hide their insecure self, thus making them bad candidates for boyfriend. How can such relationships last? I am sorry I behaved that way. Although I have changed, I lost the chance to show it to you. I prioritized myself first and set the rules as I went, because you would be faithful and wait for my call.

When you had your doubts, I never gave you a chance to clarify them. I hated it whenever you questioned me. Now I know how it feels to lose the one I wanted, just because I took you for granted, and now, everything is gone. Destroyed. The future you wanted, I was not able to give you. Because there was never a "we”. Just an "I"

I knew you wanted me to give you that feeling I used to let you feel. I neglected you. We talked, we quarreled and we cried. We agreed that we were not happy. We said let go. But I kept hanging on. But at that moment, I knew it was over, you were really gone. The pain and grief kills me, because there was nothing I could do.

I kept telling myself that you would turn around and return to me, because you loved me. I continued to lie and pretend. And when you tried to talk to me, I put up a front like I did not care. But I couldn't get over you. I do not know why. I still need you when I stumble, you are forever a part of me. But I only gave you unhappy memories.

I hope you are happy now.

I knew I messed up everything. It has been a couple of months since you left my heart behind, crying all day long which is why my eyes are becoming blind. Nothing feels the same anymore, because I am so used to being held. Friends would be concern for me, but never would I tell that I was being hurt because I loved you more than I had loved myself. I need you and I still love you.

The pain is so intense right now, I miss you.

Back when we first started our relationship, we both made a promise, to tell each other we would be honest about how we felt, what we thought. But it was always you who kept your words, never me.

I guess I was sick of pretending that we were a happy couple in front of everyone. It hurts so badly to tell you that "I was sorry" and I meant it. Because I've lost you and I know it was too late.

When I think about the sad memories, I cried. Knowing that I did not spend the time I had wisely with you. But when I think about the happy memories, I cry again. Knowing that it would never come back, brings back the most excruciating pain I ever felt.

Prolonged Hours.

2009-06-03T20:39:00.005+08:00

There's no june holiday , just prolonged school hours.Today attendance dam zai, like 10+ ppl came in the morning.
Chioinging Dnt this 2 weeks, brought parts for my artifact that costed $85 ! claiming tomorrow. Had to went down to rocher centre to buy it. hopefully all this effort serves me an A! lols. O lvl mt over ! first part was easy, second was challenging . My oral and listening need to be dam zai now..
damn boring lately,dota abit and stuff. talking to hean and dan now, both about new game l4d 2 haha and some other randomness.

Intense Mother Tongue.

2009-05-22T20:36:00.020+08:00

Hie,

Intense hell started, however it's more of a blizzard considering how cold the AVT is, at least it's comfortable. MYE papers given out, though I only received part of maths and chemistry. Both are wreckage except chem mcq-15/20 , for paper 3 i gotten a single digit out of 70 or 80. I heard only 4 people passed combine science in my class, either we're dead for o levels or it's the setter fault ;D.

I don't understand why the teachers in our school are trying to live up to our school ~~motto~~ name, having such a liking to assume stuff. I rmb how I was wronged by my form teacher twice for not doing my work while I did and she just lost it ,she then passed both my work back .There were other cases too, it's a never ending list. Or how some teacher found tremendous pleasure in pulverizing our self-esteem.

Losing all recognition from others. -my worst nightmare

Exhausted.

2009-05-17T02:11:00.009+08:00

Hey,

finally almost end of mid year, but who knew O level for chinese is in only about 15 days. Nowadays for exams, at least I can write some crap ,haha. I used to just procrastinate while observing others writing , felt left out back then.
To conclude this week- dota-ed at Friday and another day I can't rmb, i used to not like dota, but trying discover the fun in it as it should be since so many people plays it, very sophisticated game. Roy ,Jeremy Koo and Eugene came my house on thurs i think (bad memory), wanted play bball but no pump,by the way I bought one after. Le pak,they play guitar,play com,play dog and so-called study .

Tired and exhausted, I wonder who aren't?

miss me, will you?

Boring.

2009-05-05T21:20:00.007+08:00

mt exam over, for the whole day i had stomachache, somehow soya milk and chicken essence have some sort of reaction.zha bo-ed rmdl , hean ask me go pj but didn't want to either coz was still aching .

booring.. increased school hours & exams/prelims.
sch hours sux! I could never understand how knowing quadratic equations would enhance the quality of my life,or learning about electromagnetic spectrum was going to make me a more scintillating person socially. Sch hours are just merely a stage of interminable monotony we had to get through to justify the existence of the MOE,admin & teachers.

tmr el paper, how to fking study el? lol lepak all the way.

fraught with bitterness.